It is now safe to say, that despite all the information I had, all the advice I sought, I had no idea what I was getting into when I married a soldier.
Not that it would have changed my mind, but some sort of warning, from a wife, a long talk about deployments, mood swings, stress, loneliness, independence, the good days, the bad days, would have been really appreciated.
I fell into this life, or rather, I jumped without looking, not knowing where the ground would be, without knowing how hard the landing would be. And the landing felt like I had free fallen for miles out of the atmosphere and landed on concrete.
Let me be clear, I have all the support and comfort I could ask for now, but I had no idea of what was gong to happen, how drastically my life was going to change, when I tied myself, heart and soul, to the Sergeant.
What I'm really trying to say… I dislike change. I've disliked change since I was little. And my life has been completely upended, scattered around, and then set back down, for me to dig through, put back together, and put back into some semblance of order.
And there was no warning, no one to sit and explain what was fixing to happen, how my life was fixing to change.
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I think you might not be giving most people enough credit... only an idiot would believe it's not dangerous to be in a political climate like Iraq or Afghanistan... but then again, there are plenty of idiots around, so maybe you are right about that lol.
ReplyDeleteI have no illusion that being an Army wife or soldier is easy... in all honesty I am thankful you are doing it so the rest of us don't have to, because I really don't know how I would begin to handle it. Even if you think you don't handle it as well as people imagine looking in from the outside, you are doing it. Period. And you deserve the credit for that. I hope this war truly gets done with at some point, but as Edmund Burke said "evil men triumph because good men do nothing", and unfortunately, there will always be evil men in the world (which peace protesters never seem to be able to get through their thick skulls, their naivete truly makes me want to smack them) and so the world has to rely on those good men that are willing to sacrifice to do that something. I guess all you can really ask for is that they come home safe, and I hope he does!