Finding me

I have been pondering what to write for days now. The hubby is gone, busy at NTC. And the house is quiet, eerily quiet at times.

I’ve gotten tricks and tips from military wives, stay busy, have things to do, and during the day, I catch myself for a split second without him on my mind. Standing in the backyard, with puppies rolling around my feet and playing with each other, with the sunshine warm on my face, there is almost a sense of normalcy, almost. And then where he is, and the meaning behind where he is, rises up to smack me.

I was told, a long long time ago, to learn how to find myself in the stillness. I am always on the go, always wandering, that being still, in quiet place, is often hard for me. And a wise man, who once told me how to get home, and then taught me how to meditate, told me I needed to learn how to be in the quiet. So that is this month’s goal, to learn how to be in the quiet of my life.

Things have been upended, shifted around, and then shoved into some sort of order in my life in the past few months. And I am forced to admit, the stress of changing everything I knew, for everything I don’t, was starting to get to me. This month will be a good time for me to find the me, tucked away in the riotous jumble of my life.

~Jennifer